Do you like lists?

I love making little lists for myself, they're mainly around household chores that need doing. I will also add something to list that wasn't on there that I have done just so I can tick it off. Anyone else?

Whats on your list today? My list is this:
1. Sort out the floordrobe
2. Go through Roberts clothes and get them on facebay/ebay/charity shop bag.
3. Put away my mountain range of clothing currently cluttering one of my sofas
4. Get dressed...yep at 13:05GMT we are still in our pj's.
5. Go to a halloween party in Ashford.

I'm seriously struggling with the work/college/mum/life balance at the moment and you can see this when you look at my home. Things are NOT good. I can only call it a temporary blip for so long can't I?

Know when I'm not wanted.

Just a quick ranty pants on here. I was going to go out with the young uns from work Thursday night and then thought I couldn't cos I'm skintos and then discovered actually I had some money so messaged one of the guys going out to find out where they were meeting. They said that they weren't going cos they had no money. Today, all over a certain social networking site there are pictures of all of em out having a good time. Ah well, I shall go back to being all serious and won't try and fit in thinking I'm still in my teens and early twenties when in fact I'm almost thirty.

I'm too serious

According to the young 19 year old I work with I am too serious!!! The fact I've been there for just over three weeks is another matter all together so I'm bound to be serious until I settle in a little and feel more comfortable. But then maybe it's because I'm that little bit older and have that little bit more respect for my superiors that I wouldn't tell em to go forth and multiply. Hey ho, they make me laugh and I know it's only a bit of banter but felt it important enough to share with all four of my followers. How sad am I?

Not such the perfect father after all...

I'm in a bit of a predicament, my ex known as twat again for now is being a bit of a erm well twat.

I asked if he would be happy to have Robert for me if I booked up to go away for my birthday next year. He agreed and said yes of course. I asked Sean the same thing and he said, yep, just let me know the dates and I will book it off work and take Joshua away for a week. So fast forward to the weekend just gone and he's pressuring me to meet the wife and then throws me the 'well when you're away next year she will be looking after him as I've got to work' card at me. I mean WTF? I would have thought any NORMAL man would actually want to spend time with his son but no he's pawning him off on the wife for the week. Fucks sake. Pisses me right off.....not only that but the last three weekends he's been down there and I've given him his swimming stuff he's not taken him. It's like he wants to put on the facade of being this perfect father when in fact he's really not. The novelty of being 'dad' has worn off. He wanted to go down to every other weekend having him from Friday to Sunday which at the moment I'm not prepared to do neither is it fair on Robert to go from seeing him every week to every other.

The blokes a fucking cock, end of.

And in other news.....

I PASSED MY BIOLOGY EXAM WITH A DISTINCTION!!!!

I'm a surrogate Auntie!!

My wonderful friend Stacey gave birth to a baby girl last night at 10:28pm weighing in at 6lb 7oz and she's utterly perfect, an absolute doll. She's called Lilly Rose. I'm desperate to get over there and get some newborn snuggles from her and give my friend the biggest cuddle ever. She was amazing and I was so gutted I couldn't be there with her as a birthing partner. I would have ROCKED!

A piccie of my surrogate niece...

Busy, busy, busy

This week has been frankly manic! It's my second (or third) week at work now of which I'm getting irrationally pissed off because they don't do the rota in time for the following week. I worked yesterday afternoon with not a clue about my rota next week. And unless I go in or call up when they're busy I won't know. I've paid for childcare now for the boys for next week so will be mega pissed off if I don't get enough hours to cover it.

I did my biology exam on Wednesday night. That was interesting, the last two questions none of us in class had been taught it so we were all a bit confused and not many of us answered the questions. I did have a guess so who knows. Again it's marked pass, merit, distinction. I'm just awaiting the email to confirm what I've got.

I also started my voluntary work at hospital this week, I was absolutely astounded at how damn hard the staff work and they were so thankful of the fact I was there giving up my time going around and talking to the patients. I have to say some of the patients were just lovely and one person I sat down and spoke with for about twenty minutes.

So it's not much on paper but I have been a little bit busy...I'm out in town tonight for the first time in about six or seven months which I'm really looking forward to. I've got some lush shoes to wear with them too http://www.newlook.com/shop/womens/wide-fit-shoes-and-boots/contrast-platform-shoe-boot_233358801

Love em!

Thank you Mr HMRC

It would appear I am owed money from the tax man. I received a cheque in the post for just over £500 which means I can (once the cheque has cleared) finally book my holiday. Can't wait!

I'm officially employed now too. I have come off income support. Joshua will be having packed lunch every day now and gone are my milk tokens for Robert. On the plus side I get a £250 grant plus a top up of £40 on top of my wages every week for the next year.

All in all a very good day....

It's been a while

I've been manic lately and have got so bogged down with college work, uni open days and FINALLY starting work that I've neglected my blog.

I got my first college assignment back for Biology last week and was incredibly proud of myself for getting a merit. One of my fellow peers also thought I should be at medical school as I seem to just get it. Hmmm midwifery yes, doctor no. Just doesn't interest me at all. Although I was flattered that she would think that and actually tell me. It's funny because everyone looked at me and asked what I had got expecting, I guess, a distinction grade. No such luck. I am however on the right path as at the Uni open day on Saturday they are expecting merit grades to get onto the course as they have found that those with just passes really struggle and end up leaving.

I'm so incredibly excited about applying for University, I can't even begin to tell you. Just need to start writing my personal statement now....

Off to bed, peace out all xx

Pass, Merit, Distinction

All the grades you can get at level 3 at college this year. They're all marked based on how much you know about the subject matter and how you put it down on paper.

So my first biology essay I got back last night and I have to say I'm incredibly pleased I got a merit. I bloody wish I had put some more work into it though as I could have probably got a distinction. Lesson learned though.

I have a research project on genetic disease of my choice to do as my next assignment so will put my all in that and hopefully come out with a distinction.