Thursday, 29 September 2011
Yesterdays biology assignment is a perfect example of that. I literally left it til yesterday afternoon to finish the essay and I still didn't have the time to revise organelles. There would have been no chance I would have finished had it not been for the amazing help of a very good friend of mine that had my youngest in the afternoon. Thank goodness for friends eh.
Tuesday, 27 September 2011
B: Bowl of frosties approx 300cals
L: 1/4 of a pizza, bag of baked crisps 140cals, 120cals
Snacks: Beef flavoured hula hoops. 140cals
No wonder I'm starving hungry having had just 700 cals all day!! Probably a bit more than that actually when I factor in drinks, milk etc. I must go shopping tomorrow and get some decent food in. This is NOT the way to getting my beach body by starving myself. Paul Mackenna says I can eat what I want. I just need to listen to my body when it says it's full.
I am pleased to report however I lost around 4lbs in just over a week.
Monday, 26 September 2011
I've been trying to do college work tonight and have acheived a fairly substantial amount of the essay. I'm just concerned I won't get it done in time. However I have Wednesday morning to do it whilst R is at the childminders just need to be focused and get it done. I just study better at night time. I'm a night owl. Nevermind, I will need to get into to it properly as come University time I won't know my arse from my elbow unless I get organised and not like this:
Talking of Uni, I've been considering the long term future of our furry friend Emily. I just don't think I'm going to have the time for her when I start. She barely gets walked enough as it is. She doesn't get the stimulation she needs and although we do have a big enough garden for her, it's not fair on her to expect to be shut up indoors whilst I'm doing uni, placements and looking after the boys. I feel so so mean as we've just got a cat and I don't want her to think she's been replaced. I've been thinking about her long before the cat came on the scene. In fact since I knew I was going to be going to Uni. I don't know what I'm going to do yet. She's a lovely dog, really great with the boys and I may not even get in next year so just going to see how it goes.
Joshua decided on the name for our cat - Betty. What do you think?
I really fancied chilli in a wrap tonight for dinner. Instead I did a burritos type meal. Of which you can see I left loads of it. I'm starting to learn to listen to my body/brain/stomach when it tells me I'm full. I've hardly eaten a thing today so thought I would be starving but less than halfway through I just stopped as I didn't want anymore. That's some achievement on my part as I would usually clear the plate as my mum had always told me too. Not anymore. My eyes clearly were bigger than my belly and I'm proud I've got leftovers.
Saturday, 24 September 2011
Why did I then at lunchtime go and buy myself a McDonalds to celebrate. The urge of the golden arches was calling me as I entered the car park. My mouth was watering in anticipation of getting my lips around a scrummy burger of my choice. The positive of it is that I chose wisely, I chose the foods that were the lower in calorific deliciousness and I enjoyed it. Every. Last. Bite.
Anyway once she had cleared the main blockage out of my left ear, suddenly I could hear in 3d surround sound again. Honestly THE most invigorating amazing thing EVER!
You don't realise how deaf you are until you have your ears irrigated. Everyone should do it once in their lifetime.
Friday, 23 September 2011
And then you have the jobsworth traffic wardens that don't appear until the moment when your child's class come out of school and you're parked on single yellow lines so you end up running down the road, finding a parking space in the permit parking areas and racing back to the school,the other parents giving you looks of disappointment as you briskly walk past them huffing, puffing and red in the face to find your child distraught and upset that you left them.
That is why I hate the school run.
Thursday, 22 September 2011
For some reason today I just can't pick myself up, I think it's a mixture of waiting for my test results for my smear, the daunting task that is college and the fact it's so god damn cold outside again already!! The boys and I have already had colds and I can hear 50% of fuck all out of my left ear except buzzing/ringing. I have ear drops that have done nothing except loosen a bit of wax and it's looking likely that I will need them syringed. I just want to snuggle down under a duvet and hibernate until Spring.
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
Second week of college this week and to say it's rather full on is a big big understatement. After last night my head was spinning from the absolute onslaught of information given to us about the different approaches to psychology and tonight in Biology we were bombarded with slides, videos and paper about eukaryotic and prokaryotic cells. What the fuck I hear you say? Trust me you aren't alone. My head hurts, I'm exhausted, I need to man the fuck up and get stuck in. This year is a whole other ball game.
The nurse uses a small instrument called a speculum to gently open the vagina. A small brush is then used to sweep around the cervix to take a sample of cells, the head of the brush, where the cells are lodged, is broken off into a small container of preservative fluid, or rinsed directly into the preservative fluid and set off to the laboratory to be looked at under the microscope.
I would say the worse thing for me was laying there legs akimbo with the speculum inside of me whilst she was sorting out the brush when all I wanted to do was get up and get dressed.
All said and done, I got myself all worked up for nothing really. It wasn't that bad, and if you can handle the slight embarassment you'll be fine. It could save your life. What's a little bit of embarassment in front of a nurse against potentially cancer......??
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
Once its done it's done though for another three years, then you wait for your test results, cue more nausea when they hopefully say, all clear.
I would rather have the embarassment of laying on the bed knickerless with some nurse sticking a cotton bud around my cervix than not and discovering cervical cancer too late. Look at Jade Goody....too little too late. They say she left a legacy. But did she really? The uptake of smear tests is declining again and I just don't understand why people do not just book up and do it. I will tomorrow go through step by step exactly what happens so that those that do not want to or are nervous about it will know exactly what they're expecting.
It's no biggie, it's a necessary evil, but it could save your life.
Anyway you're probably all wondering what the heck this has to do with making the right choices....we were talking about the arguements many psychologists have and what freewill vs. determinism meant. How we as human beings have the freewill to make our choices how we see fit versus the predetermination that everything is our life is set out in a certain way and 'everything happens for a reason' For example the predetermination that a person is fat or thin, is it in the genes? Or is it the persons freewill or choice that they stuff themselves with creamcakes and chocolate and wonder why they're overweight. Are people naturally skinny or are they just mindful of the choices they make when eating.
These all rang true for me this evening when I thought about the food I ate today.
Breakfast: 2 weetabix with semi skimmed milk
Lunch: Ham salad sandwich on wholemeal with low fat spread and no mayo (brought in Greggs)
Snack: A small pancake with the kids and a thin spread of nutella
Dinner: Lentil soup and a small bread roll
Snack: 2 slices of soreen
I would usually have three weetabix for breakfast because I am a pig and like to feel full up until lunchtime, but its not about feeling full up, more satisfied that you've eaten enough. I went into Greggs for a sandwich at lunchtime and had a whole host of temptations waved under my nose and I resisted the little voices telling me to have a fresh cream apple danish or a chocolate eclair to go with my healthy sandwich and diet coke, however come afterschool time I was starving and knew I wouldn't last until dinner after college so gave in to temptation by having the last pancake with Stacey and the kids. I wouldn't have had one at all but there was some mix left over and it lasted just long enough to see me through college to have my low fat soup and soreen for tea.
So you see I could have done a hell of a lost worse with the choices I made but also I could have done better. We all have choices, just ensure you make the right ones.
Monday, 19 September 2011
I've always been strangely fascinated with the marathon and wished that one day I could do it..well I applied in April this year to be entered into the ballot. It would be amazing to do it, although I can imagine it will near on kill me but it's for a good cause. I'm doing it for Camille. She kicked cancers arse and every child in her position deserves a chance to survive. For more information please take a look at www.camillesappeal.co.uk.
2. Lose weight
Now this should come naturally the more I train for aforementioned marathon. The only problem is I love shit food. Burgers, sweets, chocolate, chinese, pizza...the list is endless everything that puts lbs on your arse or stomach from just sniffing it. I've therefore decided to try (but not try too hard) to stop eating this shit food and making better more positive decisions about what I fill my face with. Why o why did I buy that limited edition mars bar earlier?
3. Complete my college course
I'm just about to enter my second week now, my books are arriving for psychology and biology this week and I have my first assignment to do that is due for submission in just over a week ARGH!!! I'm still completley clueless on harvard referencing and I'm not even sure if the structure of my essay is correct.
4. Get into University
This is my biggest BIGGEST thing on my to do list! If I get into University it would be just absolutely amazing. To fulfil my dream......as well as get into an absurd amount of debt, never see my children and do a stupid amount of hours but the end result will be my dream job.
5. Spend my 30th in Tenerife
Oh yeah, I'm doing it chavesque stylee holiday...or not...it's going to be a blissful childfree relaxing holiday. Even the hotel is a childfree zone. I can't wait, and even better I get to spend it with one of my bessies. Maybe we'll have a drink or two too......